I was looking to start a new job. To find that I had a huge flaw without even knowing it.
I am introverted and quite yet I have always been OK at talking without being showing I am nervous. The downside to this is that my adrenaline levels sky rocket and my hands begin to shake. The way I get round this is by using constant hand gestures.
Anyway I entered a hotel service (4.5 stars) as a waiter to find out it was hell for me.
My trial shift went OK yet I noticed my hands started to shake as I gave food out and took plates back to the kitchen. They taught me all the professional tips yet my hands were not capable. So I left feeling OK ” It could be nerves, I am sure I can overcome it”.
3 days before my shift … I started to feel anxious with the feeling of being sick for the whole day.
2 days before … My body shut down. I began to feel cold like I was coming down with the flu. Spent the entire night waking up from dreams of me at work, I would have thoughts of me planning out the day without me even thinking at all. I felt like I was listening to me think.
1 day before … I went to the doctors and told be basically everything I new and found online and just said gave me some advise to deal with anxiety.
The Big day.
I felt rather confident and happy to start. Everyone is awesome and are happy to show me around which was great. I worked helping out a wedding for the night. So I started with the drinks, pouring glasses and cleaning around. I was OK anything with one had I wasn’t great. Then the meals were in. Props to the waiters around me carrying 3 to 4 plates at a time, me on the other hand still spilling stuff with only two. From then on It was like being trapped in hell. The thought that every step I make could spill or break something, it terrified me. In the span of me cleaning one table someone else would have done four. Then to top it all off I spilt food on someones dress and all the empty glasses on my trey fell off. SO I HAD TO LEAVE.
There is a difference between a job you don’t like and a job you physically cannot do. Everything else was easy just the simple step of taking plates and glasses away was not so simple for me.
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